Christmas Recap

Lets see if I can remember the 5 shindigs I went to.

Last Saturday I went to the boy's dad's girlfriends party. I'd have to say this was my favorite out of all the parties we went to. There were about 40 people there. There was a self-service bar downstairs which I hit up mulitple times. So I guess this is why I must have liked this party so much. Haha. There was lots of delicious food to be had as well as great conversation and many laughs. There was a football game on that night and the boy placed a bet and one the money. We also had a white elephant present exchange. All the gifts were roughly about $10. I bought a wine accessory kit, which isn't that much of a gag gift, but the boy said not to buy anything way out there. Let's just say there was that gift that nobody wanted which was 3 empty cookie tins. And the gift everybody wanted, Packers and Brewers gear. I walked away with ice trays and the boy got a wine opener. Not horrible gifts since eventually we will need those for our own place.

Christmas Eve we went to boy's dad's side of the family. There were LOTS of people there. Boy was drunk within the first hour. I guess thats the only way to get through the holidays. There was lots of conversation and a frantic gift opening that started at 11pm! We also didn't eat dinner until 10. It was a late night for us.

Christmas Day we woke up around 8 and watched Christmas Vacation, because we have to. We exchanged gifts between each other. I got perfume I've been dying to get and a shirt. I got boy a Keurig and homemade batman coasters. We went to his mom's for lunch and exchanged more gifts. Around 230 we went to his uncle's and sat squished together in a very small room with about 20 other people. We left about 5 and headed to my aunt's place and had dinner there. It definitely was a lot more quiet and calm than the other places we went. We stayed til about 715. Headed back to his place and I got right back in my car and went home.

I definitley was blessed with tons of gifts that I didn't expect. I literally have no place to put this stuff, but I will get there eventually. I'm so thankful for my boyfriend and his family and them welcoming me into their homes and family. All in all it was a great Christmas and I look forward to many more with the boy!


Peace&Love
~L

Merry Christmas!

I'm a very exhausted woman and have work in less that 12 hours, but I just wanted to wish everyone a very blessed and Merry Christmas! I received so many gifts that I really didn't need and got to spend my holiday with amazing family and friends. The stories and pictures will soon come but now its all about thinking about this Christmas and wishing everyone out there a Happy Holiday and that the spirit of Christmas is carried with you throughout the whole year!


Peace&Love
~L

The End

No I'm not going to talk about how the world is or was supposed to end today, because I'm still here. And i'm guessing tomorrow at this time I will still be here. Not that I'm complaining you see. This post is about how I have yet to purchase one single Christmas present for anybody. I'm not sure why I haven't gone out and bought a single thing. I know what I'm getting everybody, it's the simple fact I just don't want to deal with the crowds. Now it could be even worse with people getting their last minute shopping in, but at this point I don't have a choice. I'm buying only the boy's thing in store since it wouldn't come in time if I order online. The rest of my family are getting gifts off of Amazon and being shipped directly to them. I've got a busy weekend ahead of me. I have a full day of work today, and some time to go shopping after. Then tomorrow I have a little time in the morning to prep myself for the long weekend. Tomorrow night I'm going to the boy's dad's girlfriends side of the family party. Sunday will be a little bit of a recovery day, but apparently the boy and I are hanging out with the boys. Monday during the day will be wrapping presents for boy's family and then at night is his dad's side of the family party. Tuesday is his mom's in the morning, his uncle's in the afternoon and my side of the family at night. I'd say this is going to be a Christmas for the ages. I'm going to be so completely exhausted.


Peace&Love
~L

Take Me to The Sea

"Looking at the sea again tides that rise and fall and then rise again" ~Susie Suh

To me there is no greater inspiration than the ocean. Spending 2 years in Myrtle Beach allowed me the chance to go the beach any time I chose. Trust me, I spent a good portion of my days catching some sun and loving the ocean, but also lots of time sitting like that girl in the photo above. I don't know what it is, the thing never changes, and you'd think after seeing it for the 650th time I'd be bored of it, but I'm not. I never will be. There is something about looking out into the horizon and seeing this massive expanse. It humbles me. I did a lot of my best thinking when I sat there and looked out. I think the salt air and the sound of the crashing waves clears the mind and soul. I love the feeling of staring out there and feeling small, because I know thousands of miles on the other side of this ocean is a whole new world. I wish I lived closer to the ocean, because there are many days I wish I had my place to leave a butt print in the sand and stare out and just wonder and think.

Peace&Love
~l

Weekend Recap

This weekend was definitely needed and I'm thankful for the boy to come up with stuff for us to do on the weekends like only he can.

Friday night we went downtown Waukesha and went to one of our favorite burger places. They have about 20 different burgers to chose from and we are trying to work our way through all of them. After that we went on a horse drawn sleigh ride through downtown. It wasn't much of anything, but it was still romantic none the less.

Saturday we were without internet and cable for a good chunk of the morning so boy went off to a bootcamp class at the gym while I waited patiently for said cable to come back on, which it did. The internet however was out until about 3 this afternoon. After bumming around we went to his mom's for about an hour or so and came back hoping to watch some Rescue Me but as I said there was no internet. So we were trying to come up with ideas to pass the time before our dinner date. We decided to hit up Mayfair Mall, which is never a wise idea around the holidays, but it really wasn't as bad as we thought. Boy bought a cheap fedora which in my opinion he looks dashing in. We also went to this thrift store at the mall called Ragstock, which had any kind of ugly Christmas sweater under the sun. We tried on some of those and took pictures. We also tried on windbreakers from the early 90s...you know the ones you had as a child. Just look in an old photo and you were probably wearing one at some point. For dinner we went to Transfer Cafe, which has about 60 different varieties of pizzas to choose from or you can create your own. We ate here once way back at the beginning of our relationship and finally made it back. After dinner we went to the Comedy Cafe to see some local acts as well as Joey Cola do some comedy. All of the acts were hilarious but very raunchy. I also had the pleasure of sitting next to a whore. I mean that seriously.

Today was more of a lazy day. We wanted to watch the Packer game but got about 1/4 of the way into the game when the cable went out again, which sent boy into all sorts of hysterics. We decided to do some errands instead and made it back for the last 15 minutes of the game, which we wound up only watching a few minutes worth because it was boring. We watched Rescue Me instead. Boy cooked stir fry and rice while I watched more crap tv. Overall, it was a good weekend. And I'm truly blessed to have him in my life.


Peace&Love
~L

Take A Look

I'm disappointed in myself to say the least that I have not been at this inspiration thing on a daily basis. I guess this is what happens when life gets in the way. I don't want to do a lot of writing today so my inspiration is photography and I think by simply looking at the pictures you will understand why. (I take no credit for any of the photos displayed herein)

Classy feeling

Serenity

Perspective

Sometimes you just got to let it rain

What every groom should look like

My all time favs, so beautiful

So happy in love

Great perspective

What a storm

Vintage

Jumpin on the bed

How epic is this?

Peace&Love
~L

On Love

If there is anything I've learned this weekend is that relationships are not easy. If you truly love someone you are going to work on it to make it better and grow from your mistakes and arguments. If you truly love someone you will fight for them. As long as you let them know how much you love them and are willing to fight for it and they feel the same way in return, I think it will work.

Love was going to be one of my inspirations, because of the love I have for the boy and the love I believe he has for me. But I want to let pinterest help me with how I feel about love:

Sometimes it is hard to put into words exactly how we feel about love and relationships. I feel the longer you know someone the more you learn about them and chances are the deeper you fall in love with them.

Peace&Love
~L

Remembering Rebecca

I know I have mentioned my cousin in posts before and how big of an inspiration she has been to me. I know it has been a couple years since her passing and I wouldn't say I've forgotten about her, but I don't think of her day to day like I used to. Some would call that moving on others would call it forgetting her. I want to make it clear that I have not and will never forget her or her strength in her final days.

She was a blessing to anyone she ever knew. She had an abundance of friends and family. She left a mark on this world that not many people can leave behind, especially after only 19 years. When she found out she had cancer she did not ask God why her. She did not question the reasoning behind why she got cancer. She never blamed anyone for being sick. Instead of going into a state of depression like most of us would, she turned a negative into a positive, she created her own non-profit called, Cure With Hope. http://www.curewithhope.org/Home_GKFI.html Check out her website and her story.

She taught me that life is short and you can't waste away your days in bad moods or being angry at someone. She taught me that if things are going bad to look at the positive always. I also realized how many people she touched along the way and if I could just do that to half of those people I will die a happy person. So to my cousin thanks for being an inspiration. You are forever in my heart. You are gone in a much better place, but never forgotten. Your favorite quote, "Be the change you wish to see in the world." You did change the world. And I hope you are smiling down from heaven right now seeing how much you have done!


Miss and Love You hun!

Peace&Love
~L

The Big Guy Upstairs

Yeah, yeah I know I've been lacking on the day to day as promised inspiration bit, but I'm trying. I'm a busy woman you know.


Truth be told I don't know if the Guy upstairs is big or not. I've never seen him. Except in pictures of what people think He looked like. Yes I'm talking about God. Sadly, I have not gone to church in almost a year. I feel as though I've been losing touch with Him. I know deep down inside I love him and He loves me. I know where I stand as a Christian, but unfortunately not as a practicing Christian. I don't want to put out excuses because He never made excuses at me. I don't want to say I've grown apart from God, but in some ways I feel I have. I feel like I've always had religion and God with me my entire life and I'm truly grateful for that, but part of me feels like taking a break to remember why I believe what I believe. Doing the same thing day in and day out, loses its meaning to me. And I most importantly don't want to lose God or what He means to me. Above anything and everything He is my only inspiration. My greatest source of love and happiness. Without Him I am nothing. No greater time to thank Him for being who He is than now. Remembering what this season is all about: Christ.


Peace&Love
~l

They Who Birthed Me

My day 3 inspiration would be my parents. As some of you may know my parents are no longer together as of just over a year ago. As a 24 year old and as a 23 year old then, I accepted this quite easily. I saw their relationship going south shortly after I started college. But this is not really about their relationship or the current state of it. It's about the relationship they built while they were together. Part of me for awhile believed, shortly after the divorce, that they never loved each other. But as the months went on and I knew they were still friends, that they really loved each other. I have feelings more involved than what I am willing to share online about the reasons for the divorce. I know my parents were not perfect and they fought just like any other couple. But they always forgave each other and moved on. I saw my dad's simple, yet deep love for my mom, by gestures he did. Like writing her poems. They went on many different trips just the 2 of them.

I've chosen my parents as an inspiration because even though their marriage ended in divorce, I firmly believe they loved each other and still love each other, but in a different way. It also allowed me to realize what it was like to go through a divorce and it made me realize I want to never go through that, or put someone else through that. I want to make sure the person I marry is the one I die with. That is the love I want.


Peace&Love
~L

31 Days of Inspiration Day 1&2

I realize in my previous post I said 30 days, when I actually meant 31 days and never went back to correct it.

Why am I doing this you may ask...I'm doing this as a way to finish out the year. I think it will give me time to reflect on my year and the changes I've made in my life as a result of my inspirations. Not just in this year, but in years past. Each day I want to select something or someone who has inspired me in some way. I want to be able to dig deeper into myself as a person and figure out the things that make me who I am. Figure out what fuels me.

Day 1- "Pin It" Yes you know exactly what I'm talking about...Pinterest. I stumbled upon this site late last year and have loved it ever since. I don't think I need to explain what it is since most of you know what I'm talking about. I like to think my boards tell a story of me. It shows my style interest. It shows what creativity and art I like. One of my biggest boards are of quotes, which simply in and of themselves are enough to inspire. I thank the creators of the site for allowing people to post ideas and thoughts and beauty that most of us would otherwise never think of or see. It allows us to connect with random strangers in a different way. It shows us how much we are alike and so different at the same time. It allows me to feed off of others' creativity. It makes me think about things I like and what I want.

Day 2- "Life"

 

 

As you might have guessed this is a pin from my quotes board. I think it is a great inspiration piece. So often we think if we had everything we want and everything is in order and not in chaos our lives will be perfect, but really our lives will never be exactly perfection, because people are not perfect. Life doesn't and won't be perfect so we must accept that, but that doesn't mean it won't be wonderful. Life is what you make of it.

 

 

Peace&Love

~l

Just a Few Thoughts In this Big Brain

-On December 1st I will start a 30 day inspiration series on my blog. My basic premise will be to showcase things or people that inspire me daily. In turn I want to be able to inspire others. I'm doing this to dig a little deeper into myself. I chose to do this at this time mainly because when else can you be the best inspired? The holidays seem like the best place to do it.

-I've fallen madly in love with a song called 'Run' by Matt Nathanson. This song is a deep love song. This is the kind of love I want to have. Deep and passionate. I also wouldn't mind having a guy write a song about me and then sing it to me.

-I'm back to the semi-early shift at work, 8-530. I'm really not ready to go back to work tomorrow.

-I'm still not 100% over being sick, but fortunately I have a wonderful boyfriend who helped take care of me over the long weekend.


Peace&Love
~L

Running the Gauntlet

Yesterday I ran the gauntlet. I don't mean this literally. Actually, I didn't do any running. I went to 3 different Thanksgivings. Yes you read that correctly, 3! First was my boyfriends moms where I actually ate food and where we stayed the longest. Next was my grandparents place where the food from place 1 caught up with me and I didn't feel so good. Needless to say, I didn't have anything to eat for the rest of the day. I guess that is a good thing. After about 2 hours there we went to the boy's dads get together and lasted about an hour before we were both ready to pass out. I started feeling sick yesterday with  a head cold. Then as the day went on it got worse and worse. We picked up some NyQuil on the way home, took some and before you knew it I was passed out. I slept from about 8 til 7 this morning. Man am I ever glad someone invented this drug. Feeling sick is not how I wanted to spend my 4 day vacation, but I guess it beats being sick at work.

Now lets talk about the weather. Only in Wisconsin can it be 65 degrees on Thanksgiving and 18 degrees the next day and snow flurrying. It's way too cold out to do anything outside, which is a good thing because I don't think I'd feel to good doing it. I'm also not a black Friday shopper so I'm avoiding all shopping centers as much as possible. The boy is currently playing video games and I've been "working" at Starbucks. I did a little bit of lesson planning, but mainly I've been job searching and wasting time on pinterest. I'm about to head back, but I figured I would write you all with my brief story of yesterday.

What did you all do on turkey day?


Peace&Love
~L

Happy Thanksgiving

Since I most likely won't be on here until next week sometime, I figured I would wish everyone a Happy Thanksgiving! Eat lots of delish foods! Enjoy lots of time with family and friends, and by that I mean quality time. I say this because I don't get to share holidays with my immediate family due to distance, so don't take that stuff for granted. For those of you going crazy for a day and being a part of Black Friday...good luck and don't get trampled on. I will let you know soon about my long weekend and running the gauntlet of 3 Thanksgivings in a day!

Peace&Love
~L

OT

For those of you that don't know what that means, that means overtime and lots of it. Basically since I've started at the daycare I've been getting at least 2 hrs of ot each week. That starts to add up over time. (No pun intended.) Recently, it's been taking a toll on my body. I haven't been eating the best and working out has more or less become a thing of the past. I'm trying to get back on the working out thing, but I'm so exhausted when I get home I don't do it and in the morning I have no motivation since I'm freezing cold. But this post is not about that. This post is about what happened last night.

On a typical day my hours start at 830 and end at 6. I'm usually out the door at about 6 give or take a few minutes. Well last night, my coteacher and I were the last 2 stuck with 3 boys. 2 of which were brothers. We got a call from one boys father and he said he would be there about 630, so I knew right then and there this was going to be a long night. There was still no sign of the brothers mother so I called her at 605 and she apparently fell asleep and was on her way and would be there soon. It was now 635 and the one boy was long gone and we were still waiting on her. So my coteacher called her this time and she said she was 2 mintues away, when in fact, she was 10 minutes away. So I was at work until 645!!! I was quite angry. I guess I don't understand how you forget your child, or how you fall asleep and don't set an alarm to make sure you get them. I don't understand how parents think it's ok to leave your child there, do you think that we just stay overnight and don't have our own lives? Thats what irks me! Hopefully today won't be as bad...we have picture day. Should be loads of fun!


Peace&Love
~l

Short Week

I'm very happy that this week is a short week. 3 days of work and 4 days to eat and drink and sleep and relax to prepare for another long stretch of work. As much as I should put more effort into caring about these last 3 days for a little while I really could care less. I also have quite a bit planned for the weekend so I won't be relaxing all that much. Here's to hoping this week goes by fast and the weekend goes by slow.

Some highlights from this past weekend:

-Went shopping on Friday night and bought to pairs of jeans, now down to a size 6! Got a black lace dress for the boys company Christmas party for $25 from H&M and a few plain tees from H&M as well.

-Caught up on lots of White Collar while the boy was at work.

-Went to my friend, Britt's birthday party on Saturday night. We went to see a comedy show called, Bye Bye Liver, basically lots of drinking involved. After, we headed out to some bars and the boy met me down there after his family party.

-Watched the Packer game, too close for the fans to handle

-Went to the mall with the boy just for something else to do.

-Went to the grocery store to pick up some massively oversized meatballs for our pasta.

-Watched Big Bang Theory and a little bit of nothing and came home


Peace&Love
~l

Tales from an Asthmatic

I've had asthma all of my life. It was worse during my very young years and it progressively got better as I got older and more under control. As an adult it is under control but to a certain extent. I'm on a daily steriod inhaler that I'm not a fan of. I would love to get rid of it over time, but I think my body has become so dependent on it, that if I should ever stop using it, my body would have a hard time adjusting to breathing without it. However, I'm not here to tell you about me, I'm here ot share with you how I feel about parents of my daycare children who basically expect us to care for their ill child.

We have a 2 year old boy who is just like any other kid his age. He loves to play and run around and get into trouble. So, when you see this boy laying around on the ground, moaning, you know something is not right. He has struggled with breathing in the past and has had to take treatments. I mentioned to his mom once that I had asthma so I know what he is feeling. She said oh no he doesn't have asthma, its what happens when he gets sick. Ok that may be very well and true, but I still know the sound of asthma when I hear it. I know how hard it is to breath when you are having an attack and he clearly was at this moment. I felt so bad for him. We notified our director who said she would call his mom, but told us not to expect much. The feeling for him had to have been much worse than I deal with, being so little. And the worst part? His parents both smoke like chimneys. And you wonder why he is having difficulty breathing! That is one thing that just makes me cringe. How as a parent can you allow yourself to smoke in the presence of your child? I respect the fact that people want to smoke, but don't do it in front of a person who has no choice of moving away from you smoking. Don't smoke in front of children. Period. I have come close so many times to tell mom that she needs to stop doing that, you are killing him slowly.

I hope that for his sake his parents start to see what damage they are doing to him, or pretty soon he won't be telling tales of asthmatic, but as someone with cancer.


Peace&Love
~l

Thirsty Thursday...

...or is it Wasted Wednesday? Yesterday was quite a long and painful day at work. 8 children who all were crabby and crying and throwing tantrums and hitting me and my co-teacher. Made for a burned out me. And yes as you are all aware I'm looking for other jobs. I do believe that my bosses are on to me. They asked me yesterday if I was putting in my 2 weeks and of course I said no. I have no other job prospect yet. But all of this craziness lead me to drink last night. Normally I would deal with the stress by working out, but since I didn't get home until almost 7, I just had no energy left to do that. So drinking was the best alternative. I wouldn't say I was anywhere close to wasted, a little tipsy and that might even be a stretch. I had a slight buzz that wore off at about 10. No hangover today, which is good, because work could have been extra long then. For future reference, I'm not going to drink midweek anymore, especially when I have work the next day.


Peace&Love
~l

The First Snowfall

Alright so I admit I'm not usually one who enjoys the snow or cold but yet I till live in Wisconsin, where snow is inevitable about half of the year and so is the cold. And even though I've been witness to two decades worth of the first snowfall of the season, it never ceases to amaze me how much I love it. I don't know what it is, but the world seems to just stop and take a deep breath and enjoy the wonder of the moment. It makes everything seem peaceful and calm. It is as if I'm a little kid again waiting for it to pile up higher and higher and the anticipation of going out to throw the first snowball of the season. It takes me back to some sort of innocence. Granted today was just some giant flakes falling from the sky that managed to accumulate a little on my car, but that was the extent of it. Still beautiful no less.

Peace&Love
~l

Weekend Recap

I don't even know where to begin. Friday ended with a bang. I worked til 6 but the computer was taking an eternity for us to clock out so I didn't actually leave until 615 or shortly there after. I had a horrible headache all day and nothing was working for me. As usual, I went over to the boys house. He was taking a shower when I got there and was kind of upset about having to wait til his aunt's company left, but he got over that really quick. Friday we just hung out and watched some tv and ate burgers and fries. I barely remember what happened but I do know my stomach was in serious pain. I kept getting up to use the bathroom and then eventually I decided to sleep on the couch to not disturb the boy. He let me take the comforter and I eventually fell asleep sometime after midnight. I woke up again around 2 and let it all out. (sorry tmi). Boy woke up and came out on to the couch and told me to go back and lay in his bed and he went out and got me some white soda. What a guy!! :) Eventually we both fell back to sleep and slept til about 7. I wish I could have slept longer, but it wasn't happening. Boy went out for breakfast with the guys in his family like he does once a month and I just relaxed at home. He got back around noon and then we went to the local antique shop to look for a gift for a friend of his, which we never found. We went to his cousin's highschool playoff football game to see if they would make it to state. I'm positive they won, but we only stayed until the end of the 3rd and they were winning 28-7. After football we came home and watched some more tv and decided to have a light dinner of salads at a local restaurant we both love. We were both diappointed that it took about 45 mins just to get our salads and when we did they looked like crap. We were going to go to his friends house for a housewarming party afterwards but he decided against it. We went back to his place and attempted to watch the new Spiderman before I passed out and he followed closely behind. Sunday was just about as chaotic as Saturday. We got up, boy went to gym I stayed home and watched tv. After getting ready for our day we went out to the hardware store for some new screws to FINALLY put on my new liscence plates. Let me tell you thats been a long time coming. So now I'm officially a resident of WI...again! We went down to the mall to kill a little time before we went to the Wave game. Which we got free tickets for from the coach himself, otherwise I doubt we ever would have gone. We stayed for the first half and decided to leave because we were both bored. It wasn't like it used to be as kids. We went to our fav Chinese restaurant on the East Side, where we order the same thing every time, but its so delicious. And if you know me, I'm not a huge Chinese food fan, so for me to say it is delicious, you better believe that it is. We came home and watched Spiderman, which was a pretty decent movie. After that I was out the door. And here we begin another long work week.


Peace&Love
~L

Goals

I know it is not close to New Year's when I share with you things I have planned for next year and what I would like to accomplish. I am starting a list and have quite a few things that I plan to get done. One major one is what I've shared before about getting a new job. One that I love and doesn't stress me out and makes me happy to wake up everyday and go to that place. I will not reveal anymore items on that list until New Years. Sorry for the teaser!


Peace&Love
~L

Operation Rearrange Room

So I realize this is my second post of the day, but who cares? Get over it! Last night I came to the conclusion I wanted a little change in my bedroom. I had contemplated this for a long time but never actually got around to doing it. It's a small room so moving things around wasn't easy and I had only so many options of where to put things. Then after work today I worked out and did laundry and decided to finally move things around. Truthfully, the only reason why I rearranged the room was because whenever I get super stressed I need a project to do that is completely unrelated to whatever I'm stressed out about. And cleaning and organizing generally do it for me. I wish I would have taken a before and after photo of the room but its not terribly exciting anyways. Clearly I needed a change in my current room situation and hopefully soon I will make a change in my life as far as a new career.


Peace&Love
~L

Why Not You?

I stumbled across this today on good ol Pinterest.

 

 

I've been having a rough few days at work and I know we all have them. On my last paycheck I got 5 hours of overtime! Now most people would say thats great. You should be happy to get that kind of money. Trust me, I am. But at the same time in the past 2 months I have gotten at least 2-3 hours of overtime on each check, which means I'm getting lots of ot. I'm driving myself to an early death. I work 9 sometimes 10 hour days and have a half hour commute both ways. Which just adds to the stress. On top of all of that I have to keep preparing for projects at school, which eat into more of me time when I get home. I haven't worked out like I normally do since I'm just too tired. When I get home at night I'm exhausted and just want to spend the remaining 2 hours I have to watch tv. I try to get up earlier in the morning, but I choose sleep over it. I haven't been eating healthy either. I'm getting burned out and stressed out. I like working with children, but is it worth my health and sanity? I think Jillian said it well, why not you to deserve something better in any area of your life? And maybe now more than ever its time to let go of working in daycares and start something completely new.

 

 

I talked to the boy last night about it and he suggests looking into a degree related field. Or at least finding something that is not working with kids. And maybe then I can be happy working a normal 8-5 job without the extra stuff. So the new job search begins and I will keep you posted.

 

 

So why not you?

 

 

Peace&Love

 

~L



Trick Or Treat

Happy Halloween!! Crazy to think we've made it here. It actually doesn't even feel like it. I have not done any of the normal preparations for Halloween like I've done in years past. I've been too busy with work and the boy. He doesn't believe in carving pumpkins because it's too messy. I will eventually have to convince him we have to do it.

Anyways, I will not be doing any trick or treating today. Mainly, because no place is doing it today, they've already done it on the weekend. Lame, if you ask me. I however, have come down with a mild cold of sorts. I started feeling blah on Monday and was sneezing like crazy. At first I thought it was just allergies, but it progressed in to more of a head cold. It's not as bad as it could be. It's just hard to go work with kids all day when you feel blah. And then we have to go outside where it's cold and I'm already cold and nothing really warms me up. I feel like I'll be getting more tricks than treats this year. I will be happy to get through the day.

Any plans for you on Halloween?

Peace&Love
~L

Weekend Recap

Another weekend has come and gone and needless to say it was rather boring. The boy and I only spent half of Saturday and all day Sunday together. He went out on Friday night and lets just say had one to many. We had a minor argument when I got to his place. I was irritated that he was still drunk at that point and was so drunk he didn't remember what happened on Friday night. I told him that I wasn't here to just do nothing and that I had wanted to do something with him. We eventually sorted through the situation and I apologized for being a biotch. With the week he had, he deserved a chance to let go a little. After that we went to Mequon for a change of pace. We ate lunch and walked around some shops, but nothing interesting. We then went to Bayshore mall to waste more time. We headed back to his place and watched the rest of Homeland season 1. Now we are going to catch up on season 2. He passed out about 830 and I around 10. Sunday we watched some of the Packer game before we both decided we were bored. We then went to Target and wandered around for over an hour. We spent a bulk of time looking at things we need to purchase for when we move in together. We got some items from the store for dinner. We got home and watched more tv. Then I had to leave again. Worst part of my weekends. All in all it was a relaxing weekend, just went by way too fast. Can't wait to have some days off in November.


Peace&Love
~L

Fashion Friday

It has been a long time since I've posted about fashion and I feel like I've lost a step or two in the fashion world. I wear the same polo shirt everyday for work and I'm so ready for that to be over, but got to keep going before that happens.

I just find this outfit really cute and really easy to do. Even though we are fastly approaching the winter season and should be wearing cuter jackets and boots, etc, we aren't there yet. This is still a cute outfit to wear to work on perhaps a casual Friday or just a Saturday afternoon out with the ladies. I love the dark wash jeans and the dark blue shirt which is worn over a long white shirt. I love love love the blazer style and color and makes the whole outfit in my opinion. Only if I could pull this off today instead of my red polo.

Peace&Love
~L

Passion

Passion. Do you have it? Do you have the drive and desire to achieve whatever you love the most? Have you found what you are most passionate about? I'm not sure that I have yet, but I do know that I love working with kids and hope that I'm leaving some impact on them. There is no greater feeling in the world than having a child so happy to see you each and every day. Or when you have been a different room all day and you see them again they come running to you and almost tackle you to the ground with their hugs. Or the times they know you are having a bad or off day they just simply want to cuddle with you and make sure you are ok. Or seeing them achieve something they've worked so hard to get.

Julia said it well. Anything you have a passion for work hard at it. Learn everything you can about it. Show an interest in it at all times. Seek to get better at it. Understand the in's and outs of it. Most of all pour all of you energy and love into it...that is what passion is after all.

Peace&Love
~L

"Tu me manques"

Over the past few weeks I've become closer with the boy. I mean I've always liked him. We have a good friendship and we laugh and are goofy, but know how to have a serious conversation. I love him with every fiber of my being and I know he loves me back just the same. This weekend, I felt that nothing else could have made it more perfect. The perfect thing would have been being able to stay with and never leave, but alas work calls and we don't live together and that is what sucks. Let me tell you it gets harder and harder every weekend come Sunday night around 8. Last night poor boy was all snuggled up in bed with me and I told him I should get going and he gave me the sad puppy dog face and said I don't want you to leave. This whole thing with you leaving gets harder and harder every week. Trust me I know. Throughout the week we rarely get together, just because I work til 6 most days and usually he's half asleep by then. So we miss each other terribly through the week until Friday rolls around. I stumbled upon this quote a few weeks ago and think it is fitting for right now and how I feel:

In French you don't really say, "I miss you" you say "Tu me manques" which means you are missing from me.

I like this a lot better. I do miss him, but he is not with me and I'm not with him therefore we are missing from each other, basically separate from each other and not together. I'm sick of being missing from him and him missing from me.

Peace&Love
~L

Finally

I think I've finally turned the page and am going to workout whenever I can. Last night after work I worked out and man did it ever feel good. Today I plan to workout after work again. It doesn't give me a lot of time for me but I guess if you think about it, it really is for me. It's me making a healthy choice for my body.

Also I'm annoyed by the debates and our upcoming election. As a 24 year old I am legally and have every right to vote. I know in my heart who I want and am going to vote for and nothing is going to really change that. At this point, it's more or less come down to who I think is less annoying and says the things I feel are going to help this country. I just can't stand how intense people are about this election. And maybe because I never spent a lot of time caring previously about elections, this one seems to be worse. I can't wait for this all to be over and we can finally move on with our lives.

Peace&Love
~L

How to do this?

Over the past month I've worked out few and far between. One reason for this is that I was sick for about 2 weeks and had no energy to workout. Recently, I've tried getting up earlier to workout but when that time comes I'm either too tired or freezing cold to get out of bed. I don't get done with work until 530/6 and dont get home until 6/630 depending on the day. I'm trying to figure out how to balance work and exercise. I've done it before. It is more or less getting into the habit of doing it again. I don't have a gym membership, so I don't have incentive to really workout, other than I want to keep the weight I'm at and have more energy and be healthy. I think if I joined a gym, I'd go straight there after work instead of home and I would actually get it done. But then its a matter of where and how much I'm willing to spend? I know if I wasn't so cold in the morning I could get up and workout. I'm usually up at 630 anyways. That usually gives me about 30 minutes to workout and 10 mins for a shower and time to get ready. But I know I've been feeling sluggish because I'm not getting the workouts in and I'm not eating properly either. Oh the struggles of working the hours I now work. I will figure this thing out soon. Don't want to go back to the heavier me.


Peace&Love
~L

Good Feeling

Today I did not have to work which was glorious, but we did have a conference of sorts all day. We basically sat and listened to ideas to better our classrooms and management techniques. It was a long day, but definitely a lot learned and digested. My director gave a presentation and called me out as being a good teacher and I handled a stressful, unpredictable situation really well. Too long of a story to type out. But regardless, that made me feel really good and I actually got a little teary eyed. I know ridiculous. But every once in awhile you need to hear positives from your boss.

After 'work' I went to stop by the boys place since he is sick. I brought him vanilla custard and that made him feel at least a tad better for the time being. Get better soon hun!


Peace&Love
~L

Weekend Recap

It has been one chilly fall weekend around these here parts, 45 degrees...brrrrr! But I suppose we are getting to that time of year. Boy and I had plans to celebrate International Bond Day on Friday, but then he cancelled them for a family fish fry to celebrate the birth of his cousin's first child. However at 530 on Friday boy found out that it got cancelled. We didn't do the majority of the stuff he had planned since it was back on last minute. We did however go back to the Safehouse for dinner. I took him there on our 1 month anniversary. On Saturday boy had breakfast with his dad and brother and I had to take my car to get emissions tested. I passed with flying colors. After boy got home we pondered what we were going to do. I found some potential things to do, but most of them were outside and it was just too cold to do anything. So we settled on checking out halloween costumes and shopping at the mall. Boy bought a sweater jacket thing and I bought some body wash since Bath and Body always has fantastic deals. We then when to the grocery store to buy ingredients for spaghetti, not to be confused with sghetti from Honey Boo Boo. We watched a little tv and then he made me watch The Avengers since I still haven't seen it. I was fairly confused since I didn't see all the movies prior to seeing it, so I didn't know a lot of the backstories. Boy was apologetic for making me watch it. But I didn't mind it. It was a decent movie. I just had lots of questions to ask. Today boy had last day of bathfitters. He was at a bridal show today. I basically have been sitting watching pointless tv and now the Packer game. Which the game has been boring since they are winning by a lot. Hope your weekends have all been fun and/or relaxing!


Peace&Love
~L

Domino Effect

Have you ever had one of those days where you feel like everything is out to get you? I mean the ones where you feel like you are doing everything right, but nothing is going right and the world just seems like a worse off place? Yeah I'm having one of those days, one of those weeks actually. I'm irritated with my coteacher at work and try as I might to be a good sport about it and try to understand that everyone learns and works at a different pace, my pace is fast and I have a wayof doing things and if those things are messed with or I have to slow down I get very frustrated. I don't like being frustrated. I want a great work atmosphere and I know my OCD sort of shines through at work, but it is hard when day in and day out I feel like I'm trying to teach her and get her to do the things she is supposed to do more than I'm focusing on my children. This then carries over into being exhausted when I get home and not wanting to do anything but watch some tv. Therefore I choose not to do my lesson plans for the week or work on projects because I'm just too tired. Which ultimately leads me into pushing it off until the morning of. And somewhere in there I really want to workout, but getting up at 6 has been extremely difficult, even when I'm in bed by 930. I've had some rough nights due to my breathing and its getting old really fast. I'm just hoping that this is just a bad week and I can eventually get my head back on straight.

Peace&Love
~L

It's October!

It is probably my favorite month of the year. I love the cooler weather, football season is well underway, the leaves are changing and are at their peak, and we are entering into the holiday season. It's October people and I love it. I can't believe how fast the year has flown by already. And yet we still have 3 full months until the year is out! I'd like to say I want to slow it down and make sure I'm enjoying every minute of these last few months, but I know that won't happen. Work keeps me insanely busy, more than I thought. My weeks fly by fast, but my weekends fly by faster. Unfortunately weekends are the time I get to spend with boy and I really only get 2 days and 2 nights with him. But I'm very excited I get to see him after work today. He got me hooked on this BBC show called Sherlock. So I spent most of the weekend watching that. Tonight we are having dinner and discussing this show. Later on this week, on Friday to be exact, it is International James Bond day and he has something planned, so I need to dress like a Bond girl. I've got a little research to do with that, because I'm not painting myself gold or wearing any funky tight gold outfit or tight black suit, or a swimsuit. I figure a nice evening gown with a slit up the side and a toy gun in a holster on my thigh would work well. Thats it I suppose. Hope your October is off to a great start!


Peace&Love
~L

Plans for the Weekend

Since the boy has another weekend of bathfitters I myself will be enjoying some much needed alone time. Not just from him, but from everyone. Tomorrow after work I plan on spending a little time doing laundry and cleaning and most of the time watching the rest of the first season of Hell on Wheels. Which I started watching the show right when I started dating Alex. Then as we started hanging out more and more I pushed the show aside and forgot about it. Then on Saturday a few friends and I are trying to get together to do the Lakefront Brewery Tour. I haven't done a Brewery tour since I've turned the proper age. Later on in the day the house will be empty again and I will finish cleaning and catching up on some more TV with a little dinner with the boy after he is done. Sunday I might swing by my grandparents place since I haven't seen them in awhile and to finally put on my plates for my car. It has only been a month since I renewed them here in the state of WI. I also need to get all of the materials needed for school and finish up lesson plans.

Peace&Love
~L

Monday Musings

-Today I officially took over as lead teacher in the toddler room. I'm so excited, but that means lesson plans and projects are going to keep me continuously busy.

-I went to the store during my lunch break to get some groceries and the cashier noticed my work shirt and said he had went there as a child. Then he went on to tell me all about his family life in about 2 minutes. I'm sorry but I don't really want to sit and listen to how your parents divorced and they were fighting for custody of you...blah, blah, blah.

-Kids. They are quite incredibly annoying and rude and not good listeners all while being incredibly cute and loving and kind.

-My aunt is having surgery tomorrow to remove a tumor and will hopefully find out that its not cancerous.

That is all folks.

Peace&Love
~L

Fashion Friday

As promised I was going to fill you in on my bucket list adventure and my happenings over the weekend. I crossed off rock climbing!! Yay! My boyfriend took me rock climbing for my birthday a few weeks ago and let me tell you it was so much fun. I'm seriously thinking of taking it up as a hobby, but don't really have any place close to me to do such, so I'm waiting for a little while at least.

The weekend was filled with good times spent with the boy. Friday night was our chill and watch pointless tv night. Saturday we were up early and ready to hit Rock the Green which was a small music festival in Milwaukee. It featured artists such as Third Eyed Blind, Switchfoot, Imagine Dragons and Atlas Genius just to name a few. We got to see these artists for $30!!! It was for a good cause, basically saving the environment and ways we can help the earth out. But obviously as much as I care about saving the planet and going green, I was digging the music more. After the concert we went to Conjitios which served authentic Mexican food on paper plates! And it was dirt cheap, but super delicious. On Sunday we had a relatively laid back morning. We went to the mall mid afternoon to kill some time before going to a bbq at his second bosses place. He does his little bathfitters gig on the side and they had a get together to celebrate finishing another year of festivals and fairs. Although he still does them periodically throughout the year. I got to meet some of the people who worked with him and most of them were really nice. We had great weather for it too. That was my weekend in a nutshell. Yes that took me longer that anticipated.

Today is fashion friday and I actually have the clothes to do this next outfit, minus the white scarf, so I'm going brown, but I think that fits as well. Really any color scarf would work.

I have a darker version of the denim shirt and different brown boots, but I love the comfiness of the outfit and how dressed up it can be at the same time. Given that it is officially fall I can wear this outfit and not get too hot and not be too cold either.

Peace&Love
~L

We Be Jammin'

Nothing too exciting here. I will inform you of my awesome weekend and I forgot to mention to you something I crossed off the bucket list a few weeks ago in a later post. Today it's simply this: I'm constantly reminded why I love my job. It was a very rainy day today and the kiddos were stuck inside. We decided to have a dance party and we put in some Bob Marley and away we went. The kids and I had a such a great time. Every once in awhile, you just have to stop the teaching and learning and just have a dance party.

Peace&Love
~L

That type of weekend

No musings for you today sorry. I've had a rather dull weekend or weird depending on how you look at it. I had a rather rough time with the boy. I know our relationship isn't perfect and we are going to have many more days like this between us. I just felt he was distant and trying to push me away. I think I just overanalyzed it all. I know he probably wanted a little bit of space from his crazy Friday night out with his best friend. Things were just awkward between us then and I did a lot of thinking and a lot of crying, not in front of him of course. I talked to my most trusted girlfriends and asked for their advice and they said the same thing, all relationships are going to have some bumps and you aren't always going to say sweet little nothings to each other. But we see how you to interact and we can tell you love each other a lot. I do love him a lot and I know he knows that. I believe that he loves me back as well, but it just seemed as if I was in his way or interfering and he would rather have been just left alone. You do have to take the good with the bad. And learn and grow from each other. Most of all listen and communicate with each other. Have open lines of communication and I don't think you can fail. Although, I know thats a lot easier said than done all the time, especially when you aren't living with that person. I don't demand perfection from him, I just want his kindness and love.


Peace&Love
~L

Fashion Friday

Well folks this is the last day of August!!! How crazy! Summer went by so fast, but I'm sort of glad about that. Fall is my favorite season, especially for the fashion. I want to share an outfit today that is another good transition outfit. It is still summery but can be worn in early fall.

 

 

I love the warm colors that remind of fall. Also if I could have a brown bag like that I would die. I'm searching for the perfect one and this one is pretty darn close. I'm also not one to wear yellow or polka dots, but I think I would wear a more goldenrod yellow like the shirt here.

 

 

Enjoy the last few weeks of warmer weather!

 

Peace&Love

~L

New Job

I'm not sure if I filled you all in on whether or not I had a new job, well I do. I will be a toddler teacher at KinderCare. I'm very much excited to start, but a little nervous. As much as I grew to love where I was working previously, I had to do the right thing for me. I didn't want to become stuck in a rut where everything is complacent. It's the same day in and day out. I'm going to basically be starting all over again, and I hope that it is worth it. I'm back working the 9-6 shift, definitely not my favorite, but hopefully I can work down towards the earlier shifts, and sooner rather than later. I also have to wear a uniform. Really not my favorite because I would like to wear teacher clothes. But I look at it as I don't have to get my clothes all dirty and I will have less big loads of laundry to do. Anyways, I will be leaving shortly to start this new job of mine. I have closed another chapter in my life and begin writing another one.


Peace&Love
~L

Monday Musings

Yes a week has passed and I've been extremely busy. Like I turned 24 last Thursday. I'm indifferent to birthdays. I'm not afraid of getting old. I'm just not a fan of being the center of attention. My bf did take me out to dinner and got me a gorgeous necklace and scarf and flowers. I spent Thurs-Sun at his place which was nice. Friday he made a steak and potato dinner and we caught up on Hells Kitchen. Saturday we went rock climbing which I loved. I'm thinking of doing it more often. We also went to his aunt's house to celebrate his grandma and cousins birthday. Yesterday was more of a chill day. We went shopping and didn't buy anything. He bought a shirt. That was my birthday weekend in a nutshell. I feel like I have a lot of living up to do for his birthday. So anyway this was more of an update of the past few days, but here is a musing for you.

-The awkward moment when you are trying on bras to see if they fit and your phone rings and it happens to be bf and of course you don't want to ignore him so you decide to answer. Thinking possibly maybe you should just tell him that you will call him back soon. Then you get to talking about your day and before you know it you are in an awkward position of trying to get your clothes back on and not wanting the others in the dressing room to hear both sides of the conversation so you don't put him on speaker which makes dressing all the more difficult. Finally, you manage to get dressed and out and on the move and within minutes of your struggle the conversation is over. Yeah, that happened today.

Peace&Love
~L

Monday Musings

Oh I can't believe it is Monday again. Crazy! What has happened today let me share with you:

-My favorite thing about work is when my little babies come walking up to me first thing in the morning and give me gigantic baby hugs. Melts my heart everytime

-Had to talk with the pastor of the church I currently work at for an exit interview. I had to basically say why I am leaving and if they could improve anything. She also said Missy, my boss, was very heartbroken and sad over losing me. Oh brother...made me feel guilty.

-Got a haircut. Love getting the shampoo done so I can get a head massage.

-What I thought about while getting my haircut: men get to have women cut their hair, and many of them are decent looking women, and at some places they are gorgeous. So men get to have a better experience as far as I'm concerned. When do I get to have a guy who looks like Channing Tatum, who is straight, cut my hair?

-Go potty before going anywhere. You can never plan on unplanned traffic or your bladder deciding it is going to super fill itself up. And when you bust through the front door of your house you want nothing more than to throw everything down and run straight to the nearest potty and relieve yourself.

-Crossing off 3 things on the infinitely long to do list this week sort of makes it feel things are more doable.

Peace&Love
~L

Weekend Recap

I suppose it is rather silly to post a recap when the weekend isn't quite over. But I've done most of my weekend already. Today is more or less just sitting around doing absolutely nothing. Friday night I babysat for my cousin's kids who were so easy to take care of. I was completely exhausted from the crazy week I had. I got 11 hours of sleep which was awesome. Yesterday was spent pretty much doing what I'm doing now, a bunch of nothing. I did start working on my birthday present for my boyfriend. I know part of it is a homemade craft, which I will show you when it is finished. At about 230 I left to go to Mukwonago to go to Maxwell Street days which is a flea market. I mainly went to see my bf and support him in his bathfitters committment. I was there for about 2 hours until he finished up. Then I went back to his place and we got ready to go down to Irish Fest. We had a good time down there, minus spending lots of money to get in. We learned a lot about Ireland and it has us interested in taking a trip there soon. I've always wanted to go, but I'm more serious about it now. We learned how to hurl, which I never knew was a sport until yesterday. The most disappointing thing about the Fest was that they served no Guinness. How is that even possible? It's the most Irish beer out there. But I made up for it with a Sprecher Irish Stout, which was pretty darn close to my Guinness. Alex said a lot of sweet mushy stuff through the course of the night, which always makes me smile and love him even more. He makes me extremely happy and I get those butterflies still. I'm just so very lucky to have him in my life. Today he went down to Kenosha to do his last day of bathfitters for hopefully ever, or at least until her committs to it again come winter. I also have an outfit to share with you that I wore yesterday that is my fashionable friday picture.

Don't mind the horrible quality and mess. I can't tell you prices on this stuff since I bought most of this last year. Boot are from Famous Footwear, jeans from American Eagle, Cardigan from Old Navy, button up from H&M, belt came with a shirt from Kohl's. A great fall outfit if I do say so myself. And the weather around here has been very fall like allowing me to wear outfits such as this.


Peace&Love
~L

Not whacked out today

I could probably find enough to complain about or find something whacky, but I'm just not feeling it today. I haven't let anyone know that I had an interview for a new childcare job that gives me a chance to grow. Eventually I told my boss and gave her fair warning and we had talked many times about it. I told her if they call back I am taking the job. Well they called yesterday afternoon and offered me the position. I called them back today and told them I accepted. Well I told my boss at the end of the day that I had taken the position and she was really pissed. I have no idea why. I told her way back in June that I was looking for other places of employment. It wasn't like I blind sided her with this. I know it isn't easy for her to hear. And she doesn't want to take the time to find replacement people. Anyways I'm happy with my decision, but feel the next 2 weeks will be extremely awkward. Here is a little song that helped me remember that our life is a bunch of roads running together to get us to the end destination. Some roads are tough and filled with bumps and sometimes we even take wrong turns, but without those wrong turns we can never get back on the right one.

Every Road by The Maine

"On every road
We cross alone
We're thinking of those we left back home
So follow the lines
And I'll be your guide
Cause we're the lucky ones
on every road."

Peace&Love
~L

Sales and Gunmetal

Thank you weather for making it feel like an early fall. Which just in case none of you know, fall is my favorite season. In the past few weeks, I've been more and more interested in expanding my knowledge of fashion and getting back to being that girl who had fashion sense. The only thing keeping me from really going out there is money. If I had a few hundred dollars laying around to spend on clothes I certainly would, but money is tight. I've been getting inspiration from pinterest as well as some fashion blogs. I'm trying to buy a few pieces of clothing and add accessories. I want to be able to utilize the clothes I have to creat different outfits. So I've written a short list of basics I need for my wardrobe. A pair of skinny jeans, jeggings, black skinnies, khakis, pencil skirt, blazer, a few button up blouses, a few cardigans, denim shirt, some tank tops, and thats all I've got right now. I have a few of these things already and have shoes and scarves to accompany these pieces. Today I did some shopping, but was rather disappointed. I know most places at the moment are clearing out and discounting their summer clothes and stocking up on fall merchandise. H&M has become one of my favorite stores as of late and lucky for me I was able to knock 2 items off my list for under $40. I got a white button up for $20 and a pair of black skinnies for $12. That right there could be an outfit. Just have to find some cute flats and a pop of color in a scarf or jewelry.

If any of you know me, you know that I love nailpolish and am constantly changing my nail color. I am currently wearing Gunmetal by Sally Hansen. It is a metallic grey. I've been wearing lots of oranges and pinks for summer and I needed a change of pace. It will definately be one of my favorite colors come fall.

Peace&Love
~L

Fashion Friday #1

Welcome to my first edition of Fashion Friday. As I stated in a previous post I will either try a new fad and see how well it worked or show you an outfit that I am wearing or have found that would love to have. Since today it felt like fall around here. I shouldn't say that, because fall in Wisconsin is anywhere from 50-70 degrees. Well we hit about 71 degrees today and it felt so good after all this extremely hot weather we've been having. Basically, I'm in a fall mood today and wanted to share an outfit from pinterest that is really easy to put together. It is a nice transition outfit from summer to fall and the capri's and tank top can be worn without the cardigan.

Cardigan: AE $25, Tank: AE $7, Jeans: AE $20, Sandals: AE $20

Peace&Love
~L

Whacked out Edition 2

Yeah yeah yeah. I have completely failed on my job of starting these new series. I'm sorry for that. I don't have too much stuff to complain about today. Other than my computer being completely whack. The screen has an odd resolution going on. The colors are all out of whack and I'm not even sure whats going on with that. Then my mouse keypad thing doesn't work the way it's supposed to which makes doing anything on my computer a little difficult. Good thing I can always hook up a mouse to it. Anyways that is my short whacked out edition for you.

Peace&Love
~L

Whacked out Wed. First Edition

So let's begin with the first edition of whacked out. How fitting that I actually have something to complain about.

A few weeks ago I went to my bank and asked when I was getting a new debit card. I had noticed that my card expired on July 31st and still had seen nothing in the mail regarding a card. The teller told me that it looked like from her database they were mailing cards out on the 24th and I would get it by the 31st. Well shockingly enough I didn't get it yesterday. I still don't have it. I went back to the bank today, but tried a different location. I explained the situation to a teller and she said well sometimes that happens with custom made cards. I told her I didn't order a custom made card. I told her that logically they should have sent a card a couple of weeks ago so I would have it by the end of the month. She had no idea what I was saying to her, so I talked to an actual banker and he took care of the situation by issuing me a temporary debit card. He said that he has no idea why I wouldnt have gotten one and that he was going to order another one. I then asked him if they can see when a card has been ordered or sent and he said no that can't be done. Really?! So I was lied to by one location and the teller at this place had no idea what she was talking about and just sat there with her ridiculous face smiling away. You are wasting my time and that annoys me.


Love&Peace
~L

Where do we go from here?

I have thought about where I would like to take this blog next. I still very much want to keep it about my life and the challenges, experiences, wrong turns, right turns, mistakes, and good choices that make me who I am. But I want to keep people interested in reading and hope to gather some new readers. I'm not promising this new idea is going to work but I'm going to give it a shot.

Monday Musings- I will gather my random thoughts for the day, the good, the bad and the ugly. If I have pictures of whatever I will most certainly try and post them.

Tuesday's Thoughts from a Teacher- Since my current occupation sees me as a teacher I find it important to keep learning myself, therefore I will try and learn something new by way of research and share it with you. I may also find tips from fellow teachers. I guess whatever tickles my fancy.

Whacked out Wednesday- Anything crazy, bizarre, annoying, etc that will allow me to scream out my feelings of how common sense is very much lacking in this world.

Fashionable Friday- I'm trying to call back to my days of being a fashionista in highschool, then I got fat, and then I lost weight and am afraid to take risks on clothes, mainly because I'm not afraid to gain weight and not fit in those clothes again. I will try a new trend or fad and share if it was a success or fail. I will also showcase some outfits I have or I want to have.

Weekend recaps- I doubt I will post on the weekends as that seems to be the time I am most busy. I will try my best to try and recap the weekend on Sunday nights, but most likely this will not be a topic and I will post anything important on Monday Musings.


That is all for now lovelies! Enjoy your Tuesday night!

Peace&Love
~L

#30 and Some other ramblings

I started this test months ago and finally here we are at the last question. I started this initially as something new to share and post and it became a learning experience about myself. There were some questions (like this last one) that left me thinking and searching. Everytime I thought 'ok I have nothing to do at the moment let me quickly post something on my blog' and then I get stuck with a tough question and I'd wait and wait. I'm not sure I've come out on the other side of this as a better person or have a deeper connection with myself, but I hope I've begun to start digging into myself.

So here it is, the final question: What 10 things do you HOPE to be remembered for?

First of all, notice my caps of hope. This is not what I want to necessarily be remembered for, but what I'm hoping for. Also I hate thinking about laying on my deathbed reflecting on my life and wondering what people thought of me and what kind of impact I left on this earth.

1. My sarcasm- I tend to be blunt and to the point. If you don't like it, get out of my way. It's sort of my second language. In recent years, it's gotten worse and people are beginning to talk...

2. My work with children- I hope that the kids I've worked with over the years remember me as being an awesome teacher/nanny/babysitter/mentor/whatever it is that I was to them. I also hope parents see the impact I'm making on their childrens lives.

3. Volunteer work- Now I haven't done a lot of this, but I'm hoping to start doing more of this. I feel it betters you as a person when giving back to others, whether they need it or not. The feeling is even greater when you are getting nothing in return for it. It's out of your own time. I want to be able to help lots of people and change lots of lives.

4. Being a good friend- I hope that I've been the best friend I could to all of my friends. I hope they have seen I'm always there and try to be a good listener and advice giver or just that shoulder to cry on.

5. Good wife- Even though I'm not married, nor anywhere near this yet, I hope that at the end of this journey called life, my husband would look at me and say you were the best thing that ever happened to me and you have changed me for the better.

6. Potentially a good parent- I'm still not sure if I want to bring children into this world or not. I do and I don't, but if that time should come, I hope that I can see my children were raised well and they succeed and achieve all of their dreams.

7. I hope people find that I stood for something. I'm not sure what that could be, but I hope I use my voice and not sit back in the corner.

And that folks is all I have for you. I'm befuddled. I can't wrangle up 3 more things, because I think they can be added as I get older and have done more.

Peace&Love
~L

#29 Most Misunderstood

Ok folks here it is the 2nd to last post for this topic...finally. #29 asks the question what is the most misunderstood thing about you?

I would have to say many people mistake my shyness for being antisocial. I have to say as a younger child I was your typical kid, shy around strangers but comfortable around people I knew. As I got older I became more open and less shy and stayed that way until I graduated highschool. When I got to college I was pretty shy at first, but then eventually stuck to my group of newly acquired friends. Then I left one college to go to another for 1 year and realized how comfortable I had become and how shy I was all of a sudden. After basically adjusting to life at this school I transferred again, basically given the chance to start over. I had to options either stay the quiet girl who was comfortable the way things were, or become more open and eager to meet others, needless to say my shyness won and I wish I could go back to that first night in Myrtle Beach, but that would have changed me and who knows where I'd be right now?! I'm pretty happy with where I am. Unfortunately because I seem shy at first, most people are turned off and assume that I'm awkward or antisocial, and that is simply not the case. I'm just taking in my surroundings and getting to know you as a person. Once I'm comfortable around a person, I'm fully capable of talking to them easily. Anyways, if we ever happen to stumble upon each other at some point in the future and I seem shy, don't let that scare you, come and sit down and get to know me.


Peace&Love
~L

#28- Love Language

I have heard of the love languages before, but I had to do a little research to know exactly what it was. There are 5 categories: Words of Affirmation, quality time, receiving gifts, acts of service and physical touch. These are all rather self explanatory so I'm not going to tell you what each means. I found a test online that could pinpoint for me where my love language lies. I knew for sure it wasn't going to be receiving gifts or acts of service. I scored highest in quality time. I want to spend quality time with those that I love and want the same in return. I want to be focused on the other person without distractions. I figure that is fairly accurate for me. If you want to take the test here is the website: http://www.5lovelanguages.com/assessments/love/

Peace&Love
~L

#27

Well folks we are coming down to the final questions. It took forever getting here, but hey, I have a life you know. After I complete this 30 question thing I want to start having more of a focus of days like Monday Musings, Fashionable Friday, etc.

So #27- What is your favorite body part and why?

This is hard because for the most part I love my whole body. I've worked hard for the body I have. I fault myself every now and then, but I know I'm not perfect. I don't have visible washboard abs, but I know they are there. I've got cellulite on my thighs, but I realize thats a sign of getting older. I have scars and bumps and bruises but I feel each of those things have a story to tell. I'm not always a fan of my eyes because I've been told they are big, but that makes me unique. I have to say if I had to pick one body part I like it would either be my feet or hands. I think I have perfect feet and hands. I also feel that my feet and hands have done the most work for me. They are signs of a body well used. But they always look good, without me having to do much.


Peace&Love
~L

What to do on a Sunday and #26

Let me start with #26 What popular notion does the world have wrong?

Let me preface this by saying this is not meant to be a controversial post or meant to offend anyone it is simply what I believe.

I think the notion we have wrong is the general topic of homosexuality.

I grew up in a Lutheran home believing that homosexuals were disgusting people and were out there for the rest of the world to mock them for their behavior. I believe firmly, even now, that God established marriage to be one man and one woman. As I got older, the idea of homosexuality wasn't so hush hush. I've met and became friends with lesbians and gays. By meeting and becoming friends with these people I've realized they are people too and have feelings just like me. Even though I don't support what they choose to do in living the lifestyle they choose, I support them as a friend and person. People think we are born with something that makes a person homosexual and that its not a choice. But just like someone who is a thief or a liar or murderer, we aren't born with a chip in us that says oh you are a murderer. No, it's a choice that we make. We all have a free will and can make any choice we choose. And yes I believe that homosexuality is a sin as it says in the Bible, but I believe all of the things I listed are also sins, but I'm not the one to judge.


On to other things, what do I do with a lazy Sunday? Typically I'm with my boyfriend doing stuff but he had to work all weekend so I haven't seen him much. :( Now normally we would have breakfast and probably headed downtown to find something to do. Today it is all on me. I'm thinking of hitting the beach. Get a little outdoor time and of course a tan. I've got quite the nice swimsuit tan line going on. Oh Sunday, what will you bring? Here's to a little adventure!!

Peace&Love
~L