One womans journey to find herself and make the most out of life






Tuesday, July 31, 2012

Where do we go from here?

I have thought about where I would like to take this blog next. I still very much want to keep it about my life and the challenges, experiences, wrong turns, right turns, mistakes, and good choices that make me who I am. But I want to keep people interested in reading and hope to gather some new readers. I'm not promising this new idea is going to work but I'm going to give it a shot.

Monday Musings- I will gather my random thoughts for the day, the good, the bad and the ugly. If I have pictures of whatever I will most certainly try and post them.

Tuesday's Thoughts from a Teacher- Since my current occupation sees me as a teacher I find it important to keep learning myself, therefore I will try and learn something new by way of research and share it with you. I may also find tips from fellow teachers. I guess whatever tickles my fancy.

Whacked out Wednesday- Anything crazy, bizarre, annoying, etc that will allow me to scream out my feelings of how common sense is very much lacking in this world.

Fashionable Friday- I'm trying to call back to my days of being a fashionista in highschool, then I got fat, and then I lost weight and am afraid to take risks on clothes, mainly because I'm not afraid to gain weight and not fit in those clothes again. I will try a new trend or fad and share if it was a success or fail. I will also showcase some outfits I have or I want to have.

Weekend recaps- I doubt I will post on the weekends as that seems to be the time I am most busy. I will try my best to try and recap the weekend on Sunday nights, but most likely this will not be a topic and I will post anything important on Monday Musings.


That is all for now lovelies! Enjoy your Tuesday night!

Peace&Love
~L

Sunday, July 29, 2012

#30 and Some other ramblings

I started this test months ago and finally here we are at the last question. I started this initially as something new to share and post and it became a learning experience about myself. There were some questions (like this last one) that left me thinking and searching. Everytime I thought 'ok I have nothing to do at the moment let me quickly post something on my blog' and then I get stuck with a tough question and I'd wait and wait. I'm not sure I've come out on the other side of this as a better person or have a deeper connection with myself, but I hope I've begun to start digging into myself.

So here it is, the final question: What 10 things do you HOPE to be remembered for?

First of all, notice my caps of hope. This is not what I want to necessarily be remembered for, but what I'm hoping for. Also I hate thinking about laying on my deathbed reflecting on my life and wondering what people thought of me and what kind of impact I left on this earth.

1. My sarcasm- I tend to be blunt and to the point. If you don't like it, get out of my way. It's sort of my second language. In recent years, it's gotten worse and people are beginning to talk...

2. My work with children- I hope that the kids I've worked with over the years remember me as being an awesome teacher/nanny/babysitter/mentor/whatever it is that I was to them. I also hope parents see the impact I'm making on their childrens lives.

3. Volunteer work- Now I haven't done a lot of this, but I'm hoping to start doing more of this. I feel it betters you as a person when giving back to others, whether they need it or not. The feeling is even greater when you are getting nothing in return for it. It's out of your own time. I want to be able to help lots of people and change lots of lives.

4. Being a good friend- I hope that I've been the best friend I could to all of my friends. I hope they have seen I'm always there and try to be a good listener and advice giver or just that shoulder to cry on.

5. Good wife- Even though I'm not married, nor anywhere near this yet, I hope that at the end of this journey called life, my husband would look at me and say you were the best thing that ever happened to me and you have changed me for the better.

6. Potentially a good parent- I'm still not sure if I want to bring children into this world or not. I do and I don't, but if that time should come, I hope that I can see my children were raised well and they succeed and achieve all of their dreams.

7. I hope people find that I stood for something. I'm not sure what that could be, but I hope I use my voice and not sit back in the corner.

And that folks is all I have for you. I'm befuddled. I can't wrangle up 3 more things, because I think they can be added as I get older and have done more.

Peace&Love
~L

Sunday, July 22, 2012

#29 Most Misunderstood

Ok folks here it is the 2nd to last post for this topic...finally. #29 asks the question what is the most misunderstood thing about you?

I would have to say many people mistake my shyness for being antisocial. I have to say as a younger child I was your typical kid, shy around strangers but comfortable around people I knew. As I got older I became more open and less shy and stayed that way until I graduated highschool. When I got to college I was pretty shy at first, but then eventually stuck to my group of newly acquired friends. Then I left one college to go to another for 1 year and realized how comfortable I had become and how shy I was all of a sudden. After basically adjusting to life at this school I transferred again, basically given the chance to start over. I had to options either stay the quiet girl who was comfortable the way things were, or become more open and eager to meet others, needless to say my shyness won and I wish I could go back to that first night in Myrtle Beach, but that would have changed me and who knows where I'd be right now?! I'm pretty happy with where I am. Unfortunately because I seem shy at first, most people are turned off and assume that I'm awkward or antisocial, and that is simply not the case. I'm just taking in my surroundings and getting to know you as a person. Once I'm comfortable around a person, I'm fully capable of talking to them easily. Anyways, if we ever happen to stumble upon each other at some point in the future and I seem shy, don't let that scare you, come and sit down and get to know me.


Peace&Love
~L

Thursday, July 19, 2012

#28- Love Language

I have heard of the love languages before, but I had to do a little research to know exactly what it was. There are 5 categories: Words of Affirmation, quality time, receiving gifts, acts of service and physical touch. These are all rather self explanatory so I'm not going to tell you what each means. I found a test online that could pinpoint for me where my love language lies. I knew for sure it wasn't going to be receiving gifts or acts of service. I scored highest in quality time. I want to spend quality time with those that I love and want the same in return. I want to be focused on the other person without distractions. I figure that is fairly accurate for me. If you want to take the test here is the website: http://www.5lovelanguages.com/assessments/love/

Peace&Love
~L

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

#27

Well folks we are coming down to the final questions. It took forever getting here, but hey, I have a life you know. After I complete this 30 question thing I want to start having more of a focus of days like Monday Musings, Fashionable Friday, etc.

So #27- What is your favorite body part and why?

This is hard because for the most part I love my whole body. I've worked hard for the body I have. I fault myself every now and then, but I know I'm not perfect. I don't have visible washboard abs, but I know they are there. I've got cellulite on my thighs, but I realize thats a sign of getting older. I have scars and bumps and bruises but I feel each of those things have a story to tell. I'm not always a fan of my eyes because I've been told they are big, but that makes me unique. I have to say if I had to pick one body part I like it would either be my feet or hands. I think I have perfect feet and hands. I also feel that my feet and hands have done the most work for me. They are signs of a body well used. But they always look good, without me having to do much.


Peace&Love
~L

Sunday, July 15, 2012

What to do on a Sunday and #26

Let me start with #26 What popular notion does the world have wrong?

Let me preface this by saying this is not meant to be a controversial post or meant to offend anyone it is simply what I believe.

I think the notion we have wrong is the general topic of homosexuality.

I grew up in a Lutheran home believing that homosexuals were disgusting people and were out there for the rest of the world to mock them for their behavior. I believe firmly, even now, that God established marriage to be one man and one woman. As I got older, the idea of homosexuality wasn't so hush hush. I've met and became friends with lesbians and gays. By meeting and becoming friends with these people I've realized they are people too and have feelings just like me. Even though I don't support what they choose to do in living the lifestyle they choose, I support them as a friend and person. People think we are born with something that makes a person homosexual and that its not a choice. But just like someone who is a thief or a liar or murderer, we aren't born with a chip in us that says oh you are a murderer. No, it's a choice that we make. We all have a free will and can make any choice we choose. And yes I believe that homosexuality is a sin as it says in the Bible, but I believe all of the things I listed are also sins, but I'm not the one to judge.


On to other things, what do I do with a lazy Sunday? Typically I'm with my boyfriend doing stuff but he had to work all weekend so I haven't seen him much. :( Now normally we would have breakfast and probably headed downtown to find something to do. Today it is all on me. I'm thinking of hitting the beach. Get a little outdoor time and of course a tan. I've got quite the nice swimsuit tan line going on. Oh Sunday, what will you bring? Here's to a little adventure!!

Peace&Love
~L

Saturday, July 14, 2012

Time for a Change and #25

I thought it was time to clean up my blog. I had different types of fonts going on and it was too dark for me. I wanted a change. I figured things have changed in my life, but in a good way. I'm lucky to have a job, even though I hate it at times. I have a wonderful boyfriend who I wouldn't trade for anything in the world. My family isn't whole, but I think for whatever reason, my parents had to separate to find their own happiness. I'm moving on to bigger and better things and I want my blog to follow suit. My only problem is that I am trying to figure out how to make my background white or lighter instead of grey. If someone can help me out with that, that would be great. I've been doing all sorts of things but can't seem to figure it out. I'm clearly not blog savvy. I would also like to be able to put a few pictures at the top of my blog. How do I go about doing that?? I'm sure this is all relatively easy, but as stated a few sentences ago I'm not blog savvy.

#25- Dinner with anyone in history and what would you eat.

Ok the eating part is easy the person isn't so much. There's a lot of people I would love to have dinner with. Let me start with the food. We would have steak and potatoes and lobster. (surf'n'turf) Of course we would have a good wine to compliment both. The person I would like to have dinner with would be Jackie Kennedy. She exemplifies style and beauty. I think she was a strong women in a time of great sadness.


Peace&Love
~L

Thursday, July 5, 2012

The 4th and #24

Guys we are almost there! I'm going to start off with #24 which asks about my family dynamic as a child vs my family dynamic now. Well let me tell you lots have changed since my childhood. I remember my family being a family. We did lots of things together. We played games, watched movies, went out to different festivals and fairs, and went on vacations together. As I got older, along with my siblings, we each became ourselves and figured out what we liked and didn't like. That in and of itself changed our dynamic. Today, our dynamic is very different. None of us live close to each other so it's rare to see one another, even the holidays are hard to manage. Now that my parents are divorced I can't say we are a whole family. I still believe I have a family with my dad and my siblings and then my mom and my siblings. The holidays will be much different than they ever have been. It is also hard because my sister is married and has to share time with her husband's family as well. Let me tell you, it doesn't get easier when you get older.


My 4th went a little something like this:

Alex and I went downtown for the fireworks on the 3rd. However, given the crazy heat we didn't stay for the entire show. We stayed for about 20 minutes and decided to call it a night. On the 4th we went to his mom's place so he could clean and wax and whatever else you can do to a car. He did that with his mom's boyfriend, while I stayed inside with his mom and the doggie. We eventually left and had breakfast at George Webb's. We went home watched some television. I passed out somewhere in that time frame and woke up to go to Alex's uncle's house for a cookout. Now there were many of Alex's other family in from Nicaruaga that he barely knew. He didn't seem to have a very good time with the heat and no one he knew was there. I tried to make the most of it and have to say had a pretty good time with about 60 Latinos. We left around 7 and came home and watched a little more tv before I headed off to my place. It wasn't a half bad 4th of July.

Peace&Love
~L

Monday, July 2, 2012

That Feel Good Feeling and #23

You know that feeling you get when you haven't been keeping up very well on your workout sessions over the past 2-3 weeks or so and know for a fact you have gained some weight, and yet when you go to a store to find some new shorts for work and think you are a certain size only to find out that you are in fact not that size but a whole size smaller...yeah that's the feel good feeling of my day.

On to #23, trust me, we will finish this eventually. List 5 hobbies and why you love them.

Let me preface this by saying this wasn't a hard list to compile but they all do the same thing for me, make me happy and relieve stress.

1. Playing piano- I have been playing since I was about 6. I took lessons until I got to highschool and then from there I self taught. Recently I haven't tickled the keys, but then again I don't have a decent piano to play on. I love being able to put my own emotions in to a song and make it my own. I have never created my own song, but that is on my bucket list. I know enough of music that I could probably do it.

2. Scrapbooking- this hobby I picked up during my late grade school years, but didn't really get into it until college. All of my scrapbooking stuff is far away in another state, therefore my scrapbooking time is on hiatus. Most people don't understand the point of putting pictures on a piece of paper with some fun details around it. For me, it goes beyond that, I like looking at the memories and having the story to go along with it. I do love having the details that help tell the story.

3. Hiking- I enjoy getting away from it all. Hiking has been more of a recent endeavor, but it never gets old. There are thousands of trails all over the world waiting to be walked on by me, I just have to get there. Heck, there are plenty of trails around here that I can go hike on. Hiking is an escape to enjoy nature, get exercise and to think.

4. Shopping- come on, you knew this was coming. I LOVED shopping when I was in highschool and spent money like nobody's business. As a college graduate with bills, I realize I'm more of a frugal shopper. I still love shopping, but now it's the good deals that get me excited.

5. Exercising- I've always been a competitive kid and loved playing sports in grade school. I never played sports in highschool and sort of lost interest in working out. When I got into college and had to take physical education courses I remembered how much I loved working out and started up again. There were definately times I stopped for long months but now it's more of a habit. There is no better high than the feeling you get from being done with a nice long workout.


Peace&Love
~L