I'm usually all about moving on and not having regrets and being spontaneous and making life a grand adventure. I typically don't care what people think of me, either you like me or you don't. If you don't I'm sorry you feel that way. Anyways, lets be real, I have lots of problems. Some minor. Some major. And lots of problems in between. But anything that isn't major I don't typically worry about or deal with, since it tends to keep my stress level way too high. Even the major ones I typically don't deal with because I don't find the point in getting stressed about it. So enough on that, to my main problem...I can't seem to let go of a certain part of my past. Granted, this is a more recent part of my past and they say it takes about half the time you were in a relationship to get over that person and I'm not anywhere near that. I've been out to bars a lot recently and have met a few decent fellas. One happened to be my friends step cousin, whom I met this past weekend. We hit it off really well and he asked me out on a date, but all I could think of was even though I kind of want to do this, I don't and can't. I still have old boy in my every waking thought. Although the pain has subsided drastically, I still hurt from time to time. I want with all of my heart to move on from him, but I can't yet. I also don't think it is fair of me to string another guy along, when I'm still thinking of old boy. So I had to tell this guy I'm sorry, I just got out of a serious relationship and I'm not ready to put myself out there yet. I need time to work on me and being single. I realize there is nothing wrong with just going out to meet someone and hang out, but I'd be lying to myself. One day I hope this won't be a problem and I can take all of this as fuel and a lesson to move on.
Peace&Love
~L
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