Let me tell you how to end a rather dull, long, boring month with a bang. You are probably thinking to yourself, 'she went on an awesome vacation to some tropical beach' or 'she went to an amazing concert' or even perhaps 'she scored tickets to the superbowl'. Unfortunately it was none of those things.
This past Wednesday I was in a car accident. Not my fault. I was rearended by a woman who was not paying attention to me. She was too concerned about the other drivers turning than the one car she should have been paying attention to. I happened to be the lucky soul who got to deal with this women's lack of attention. This is my first major accident. My car is no longer my car. My car and I have been through a lot of stuff and most of it not good over the past year. So I can't help but think that this is a blessing in disguise. As much as the situation sucks, because I already have plenty of bills to pay a month and car payments are not something else I would like to have. My car was paid in full and I was hoping to make it at least another 5 years on that baby. I was an emotional wreck that night and couldn't help but think, when is it going to be my turn for something great to happen?! I feel like I give and give of myself and help and am kind to those around me, but yet I keep getting the short end of the stick. I also want to just go back to that day and not be ahead of her. I always think when I drive past accidents, 'thank God it wasn't me' or 'just a few minutes earlier that could have been me.' Well, now it is me and I get to deal with all the messy insurance companies and possible lawyers as well as trying to find a car for cheap. I also need a way of getting around, because currently, I feel like I'm on house arrest. But I shouldn't complain, I was seriously injured, nor am I dead. Worse things could have happened.
The next day boy and I got into a huge fight and said things we shouldn't have said to each other. I more than him and still feel utterly horrible about it. I apologized over and over and I know he is still holding a grudge about it. But I know he still loves me and cares because he picked me up yesterday and he didn't have to and then spent countless hours with me at the hospital. I could tell he was still mad, but the fact he did those things through his anger, shows me how much he loves me.
Yesterday morning, my ride to work in the morning got pulled over for not stopping completely at a stop sign. At this point, I was laughing hysterically, because that was really what I needed to cap off a wonderful week. I had my pity party for myself and all I want right now is a car. I hate relying on other people for anything, and its going to be hard to suck up my pride and allow people to help. I'm hoping I get a car soon. I'm also hoping I'm not fearful of getting behind the wheel of a car and being able to drive.
Peace&Love
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