Changes

It's so crazy to think that in less than a week I will be moving out. I'm so fortunate enough that I have friends from work who are willing to house me until I find my own place. I just hope I don't get too comfortable that I stay like I did here.

Changes for me bring about time to reflect on the past and allow you to think about the upcoming adventures in the future. In the past 5 years I have moved just about that many times. To Minnesota, back to Wisconsin to South Carolina where I moved 3 times and back to Wisconsin stayed at one place for a month and then moved into where I am now. Crazy to think that in the past 5 years this is the place I've lived the longest (just under 2 years). Being the free spirit that I am, I don't mind the moves. It gives me a chance to learn and adjust to a new situation. But it makes me start thinking that someday I would love to just be settled. To be able to live somewhere for more than 5 years. To make a home to build a life. Right now, I have the luxury of being able to pick up and move whenever I please. I have nothing tying me down.

As I begin to look at the empty boxes and the contemplation of things that must go inside, I begin to remember the memories. I think about the random knick knacks on my shelf and who each of them connects to. Most of them are connected to boy. I begin to think about when I first moved in here, and how excited I was to be living with a friend from highschool/college. As I begin to pack up, I realize how much people can change in such a short time. The excitement I once had to live with a good friend is now the excitement I have to leave here. The past few months have been agony here, specifically the last month or so. The fact I don't even feel comfortable in my own place of residence means its time for a change. I begin to recall the times I've had with my friend and maybe parts of it are my fault for not giving her more time and attention. Since being with boy for most of the past year and a half has not allowed me much time with her. Don't get me wrong, we did hang out quite a bit, but things changed and we grew apart. I don't think we saw eye to eye on certain things, but managed to work our way around them and now I think they have just come to a head. We are both growing and working towards different goals and running down different paths in life. But she is very much a part of my learning experiences.

I think about the jobs I've held. Not too exciting. Finally, I will be closer to work (at least for the time being.) I think about the future I have in some other company down the road. I'm very excited for the potential to move up and out of daycare/teaching.

It's crazy to think how fast the years have flown by. Here I sit and smile and laugh and cry a little about the past 2 years. So much of my life changed while I lived here. I believe in the new place more of the same will happen. Many people think moving sucks or is a bad thing, but I tend to love it. It's sort of a new start, a fresh page. A chance to learn and grow all over again.

To changes and growth!

Peace&Love
~L